Back to basics.
I think everyone should write. Or type. It doesn’t necessarily need to be something that others would find worth reading, although that’s obviously a positive, it could just be a list, or a few lines, or just some disjointed jottings on your laptop or a piece of paper you have next to your bed.
I say this because at one point I was writing easily a few thousand words a week for this blog, which is not much for some but a fair amount for a medium pace typist like me. Everything I wrote was due to my needing a vent for trying to cut through all the junk about fitness there is out there. I started the blog because I wanted a way to express what I’d learned over the years, after realising how much I’d been duped by the marketing and the glossy brochures.
I was a bit pissed off about that. But I realise now the motivation to do it was driven by the fact that I was pissed off with a lot of things in my life. I was working a dull job that I had no interest in. I felt like no-one around me really understood where I was coming from. I was looking into my future and it looked frankly a bit bleak, because I had a career that on the outside looked shiny but was completely hollow inside. There were days when I literally felt the slow drip of time, feeling frustrated about being frustrated that my life was passing me by in front of a screen behind a desk having to pretend I cared one iota about what I was working on each day.
So I decided to start to write. Just a way to actually spend time focusing on a subject I actually cared about. I started thinking about what it could be like to actually like, no, love what you did and build something out of that. What was my passion? Apart from training being the obvious choice I had the additional motivation of having a rather large axe to grind.
This blog is obviously about training and training advice. But as it evolved and I started to get into the habit of writing it started planting seeds in my mind about what I could, and should be doing to get myself somewhere I wanted to be.
As I also have spoken about in a post writing stuff down also gave me no way out in terms of follow through. Just like telling someone who is unhappy with the way they look to start training I was forced to come up with an answer for myself and the state of my existence: if you don’t like it, do something about it.
In other words, stop talking about it. Start writing down what you’re going to do. And then start doing.
Well, by one measure I’ve failed a bit with this blog for the past few months. Well, like almost 6 months. I stopped posting when I flew out here to Australia, having quit my job and old life and come out here on a visa and an e-mail saying I could drop by at a dive centre to see if they were hiring. It’s not quite what I envisaged, but I’ve escaped into something I also love, scuba diving, to do alongside training.
It wasn’t planned and I certainly did not mean to take a 6 month hiatus from this, but I realise now I let the blog go because I felt the release. The pressure to actually go and do what I said was off, because I was actually going.
I’ve come to the realisation that this blog, and the writing process, was what has got me here. I’ve made a drastic move and changed almost everything as a result, and it’s all down to the power of putting things down in writing, and daring to speak and express the way you actually feel about something. Not to say that it’s all right, or that you should just suck it up and get on with it, or to try and kid yourself with meaningless platitudes about how it could be worse.
So I have decided to start up again. I owe it to this blog, and even if no-one is reading this I know what it has done for me and hopefully what it will do for me in the future. This doesn’t mean this is going to turn into a lifestyle site, just that I’m going to continue the process of reflection, analysis and sharing by writing about what I think is right and what is wrong with training to become a better version of you.
I’ve also got some new goals and new directions to my training that I’m going to share with you. Heavy lifting is still in, but bodyweight strength and gymnastic movement is also going to feature more. I’ve got to change it up a bit now, because my lifestyle is now totally different.
In training, it’s good advice to write your goals down.
I think it’s good to just write.